Day 20- This is the end…. no seriously

Bear with me because honestly right now I’ve been on a huge emotion roller coaster today and i may be making a impulse decision that i will regret, but i know its for my own good. I’m pretty sure I’ve confused the huge majority of you, but what i’m trying to get at is that i’ll probably be deleting Rants, Raves and Rambles in a few days. I really don’t wants to because of the 6 months I’ve been on here my life has dramatically changed. I’ve realised that i’m not in the right state to be constantly uploading my life onto here. I have a lot going on in my life and as i joke on this blog a lot, i don’t deal with them. It only came to me yesterday that i really should. I know what you’re all saying surely you can deal with your problems and still have this blog? Well unfortunately I’ve been using a lot of little distractions to help me procrastinate, this blog being one of them. I’m actually amazed how far I’ve come. I started this blog because i was just a girl, whose friends were all abroad and was consequently bored out of her wits. I didn’t even thinks i would  get any views let alone people actually following me and reading what i have to say.

So here i am with 120 exactly followers, contemplating whether i should delete my excuse of a blog. I didn’t post every day because i’m terrible at starting posts. I know thats the worst excuse ever, but its true. I could literally sit in front of my computer screen for hours wondering whether i should start with hey guys, *a horrible joke* or just an apology for not uploading for so long. Honestly this has been one of my better distractions. I’ve learned to improve my writing style, made a lot of online friends and indulged myself with the amazing blogging community. Honestly this blog has made me my happiest person and i don’t know what i would have done without this small little blog, but I’ve become a little codependent on it and thats not good. So I mean i will probably will make another blog when i’m in a better place, but i know i need to stop now. I’ll leave it up for a couple of days before this is permanently gone.

God this (much like many of my other posts) is really sappy, but yeah so i guess bye